Like most people, my mental health has taken a bit of a hit in sight of Covid-19. I wanted to give y’all an update on my mental health in hopes of posting something a lot of us can relate to right now.
I had been doing pretty well. I was feeling anxious about James proposing, but otherwise I was in a really good place.
Well then shit happened.
For about the first month of the US lockdown I was okay (it started what, around March 14th?). I was super bummed I couldn’t get Starbucks and stroll through Target, or go visit my friends, or get my nails done. But it was fine. I was fine. I’m an introvert anyway so it’s not the end of the world. However, being content with not having any outside communication can only last so long.
For the past three weeks my anxiety has really taken a hit. I’ve been super jumpy/nervous. There are people who work in the office behind mine at the hospital, and when they open the door I practically fly out of my seat. I was trying to do some wedding planning one weekend, and I had a bad anxiety attack two days in a row. I’ve been doing nothing but sleeping at home as a way to cope. It’s been a huge struggle.
I knew my anxiety was getting worse. Luckily, I had an appointment with my psychiatrist about a week ago, so I was able to share my concerns with him. We came up with a solution to my anxiety attacks. I got the okay to take more of my as-needed medicine. I had only been trying to take it if I was totally inconsolable, but we decided it would be okay to take it more often if needed.
PSA: If you’re not feeling like yourself, there are resources available! I’ll have them linked at the end of this post. 🙂
The main way I’ve been coping is ordering food for delivery. I feel like it’s the only way I can have any normalcy. James and I don’t even usually eat out that often, but throughout this pandemic we’ve been ordering food at least once every day that I’m off, which is three days a week. I’ve also been shopping a lot on Etsy and Amazon for some wedding stuff. The fact that we’re moving this month has both been something to distract me, but also stress me out so much. I’ve also been picking up some extra hours at work to avoid sleeping all day and actually feel needed.
So to sum it up: I’m stressed and have a shit-ton of anxiety.
I’m totally eager and excited to get back to normal, but I’m even more afraid of there being a second wave of cases. I so badly want to see my friends and plan my wedding and go shopping inside an actual store. I miss my life!
What are the things y’all miss the most about your once normal life?
Here are some phone numbers and sites for mental health help:
Disaster Distress Helpline
1-800-985-5990 or text TalkWithUs to 66746
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Text TALK to 741741